I want to start off with apologising for being so lame, I have missed updating my Blog and this just goes to show, that I am not perfect, which fits in with today's theme perfectly. Hearing Jessie J's performance of 'nobody's perfect' at Wireless last month really 'touched' me. Gay I know, but it's true. I've always liked that song, but hearing it live and having this Blog post in the back of my mind, just made me realise; it's true. Nobody is bloody perfect, not even me.
With that negative aspect in mind, that nobody is perfect, I think it makes the world perfect in its own way.
Now I haven't gone all hippy and Kumbaya My Lord shit on you, but
I'm just saying, if everyone was perfect, there would be no
challenges, differences and progression in the
world. I'm sure when new ideas, inventions and materials were
presented to people back in the day (and even now in some cases),
people thought they were crazy, especially if experiments went wrong. Learning from our mistakes and with
that strive to go on, we (as in the world) have progressed. All these
wars, political wrong doings and what not, yea they are stupid and
I'm not trying to open up that can of worms, however, everything
happens for a reason and we would not be where we are today, if it
wasn't for all the crazy shit that has happened in the yesteryears
and learning from them. Who would have thought a quill and parchment
to a typewriter to my Mac would ever have happened? God knows what
they'll be writing on next...
As humans we make wrong choices and
decisions, but we learn from our mistakes and it is said that
'whatever doesn't kill you, makes you stronger'. I don't think
completely pretending that the wrong-doing never occurred is the best
idea; 'Denial isn't just a river in Africa', but accepting it and
moving forward is what we must do. This can be a work related
decision, if you made a mistake or didn't choose the right path, or
during education, maybe you're thousands in debt, in a random course
you now have no interest in, perhaps it is in a relationship,
whatever it is, everything happens for a reason. I'm trying not to
look back and dwell on the past too much, as it is a serious flaw of
mine and does not help me with my future, but I am trying to see the
positives from the past and learn from them. If I got accepted to my
first choice of secondary school, though I would have been delighted
at the time, I would never have met my closest friends, who are like
my sisters now and for that I am so grateful that things didn't go
according to plan...
As some of you may already know, I can
be cynical, negative and sarcastic (well I never!) but I am trying to
look on the bright side of life, before it affects all those I care
about and I become a Grinch of some sort. I'll let you know how that
goes but I wouldn't go holding my breath (fail already). It will take
time and patience but I'm sure I'll get there in the end (weeey some
of that positive energy!) though, on a separate note, whoever said
'patience is a virtue' was a right cunt.
I am not perfect, so why am I looking
for perfection?
In friendships and relationships, I
have high expectations of people and rarely give them a second
chance. Close friends receive second chances as it seems like a waste
of years spent building that 'close friends' title. Men never get a
second chance with me. I struggle to understand girls who easily
forgive men and not their supposed best friends. People might say
it's because love is blind etc and therefore I have not been in love, but I do not see that as a viable excuse, I find it so difficult to forget. If he loves you then he
should not be doing something to hurt you. I respect myself far too
much and immediately protect myself from something like that
occurring again, so I don't give them another chance. I am trying to slightly change this harsh attitude
before I grow older and more set in my ways. People, men and women, friends, family, partners are not perfect and do make mistakes and do deserve a second chance, to be able to learn and change.
I realise I am not in any way perfect.
I think some imperfections make someone perfect in their own special
way. I am not a perfect student, daughter, sister, colleague, friend
or girlfriend but I try to be, so I ask what gives me the right to
want a perfect someone? I may have fantasies on the perfect man (cue
Gerard Butler) but I think it comes down to what is perfect for me.
Someone less cynical, two cynics cannot possibly make a positive
relationship, basic law of Physics that! Believe me I have never been
looking for a Mister Perfect (please refer to the males I have gone
for in the past). From now on, I am going to put more effort into
forgiving and trying to forget, to compromise whilst looking past people's flaws. Giving second chances where deserved
and fighting for something I want, who am I to give up so quickly?
Surely that's a huge imperfection right there? Trying to be perfect
automatically sets up for failure.
Let's be imperfect together, now that's just perfect!
