February 14th

This time last year I was asked by a number of people as to why I had not written a Blog post about Valentine’s Day. They expected something cynical or at least an opinion from me as most of my posts are about men (lack of)…. The reason why I didn’t and don’t really feel the need to, is because the day has never bothered me, in or out of a relationship.

I know girls and guys who truly worry and get depressed over the February 14th and I can safely say I am not phased by it at all. Surely, if you’re single, you should feel lonely and depressed everyday? Why should one day society/Hallmark have deemed ‘romantic’ make a difference? Birthdays, NYE and randomly wanting to talk to someone at stupid O’clock, makes me miss having someone, not a random day in February. When women are in a relationship they love the day, when they are single, they hate the day. Make your bloody mind up no wonder we're known for being crazy!

If you’re in a relationship, surely, you should feel special everyday? I wouldn’t want just one day of the whole year that reminds my boyfriend that I need to be loved or be romantic with… I think the random flowers for no reason whatsoever is true romance. Wining and dining should be a fairly frequent occurrence (money allowing) not just a cliché day that EVERY other couple is celebrating. That for me is not romantic. I am not just saying this because I am single, I’ve said this for a long time even to past boyfriends. 

I know some guys that call up a random just so they’re not lonely that night… Why? I know girls that go out and get drunk. An excuse to make a night of it and possibly find someone. Again why? It just makes no sense to me as to why people make a fuss over this day. Waste of money and stress in my opinion. 

I have to say it is awkward when you’ve just started seeing someone. There are so many dating politics! Do you wish them a ‘Happy Valentine’s day’? Do you ask them what they’re doing with the fear of looking like a psychopath? Do you have to spend lots of money on a gift etc?  The fear of romance without looking like a freak. The fear of looking ‘desperate’, ‘keen’, ‘cute’… (Sorry but what guy likes being described as ‘cute’? I don’t even like being called cute, I’m not a bloody baby!) Then there are those girls who think that when he has not made any effort, then he does not like me, which is not always true… It's all a bit confuzzling!

Basically, if you’re in a relationship… Have a great evening but I hope your partner treats you just as special everyday. If you’re single, just continue with what you're doing and have a great evening also. It’s funny because a few of my friends in relationships aren’t bothered by the day and I’m referring to the girls as well! It’s also funny that my single guy friends are bothered by it?! This is what society does to you... Who is St Valentine anyway? What is cupid?

Me? Valentine's? Well, I’ll just be doing the same old thing I always do. I don’t need one day of an entire year to feel single and lonely. It is the norm.

Happy Humping xox

Live your life..

It is my first Blog post of 2013 and some might say much anticipated. I must confess I've been anxious to post something. I wanted to talk about a topic that was funny et cool and thus realised I am not either one of those things, hence the delay.

I don't wish to start the new year morbidly but recent events have led me to strongly think about life and death. I am not going to start philosophising to you, if you wanted to read something along those lines (pun intended) I'd recommend Plato or the Bible. But it seems this time of year or just this year I keep hearing bad news. Perhaps it is because as I've got older so have the older generation (no shit Sherlock, simple mathematics). 

Last year was filled with marriage proposals and babies (no, not for me) and it got to the point of annoying. No, I do not want to see your ugly baby smiling on my Facebook newsfeed thanks. I think there was a secret ugly baby photo contest I wasn't informed about due to not being in the mummy elite club?!

But as they say, normally after births, comes death. I guess it's the circle of life (cue the Lion King theme tune) but it just doesn't seem fair. I know it's life but those nearest to me have lost loved ones and I feel helpless, as I want to do so much, but there is literally nothing I can do. No amount of words or comfort will suffice and heal their pain.

Due to these unfortunate events, I can say I've learned to appreciate every little thing now. I know it's a cliché thing to say, but for those of you who know me, know I moan a lot but I need to realise what I have is wonderful. I also think that I am not the only one guilty of this (not that it makes it right).

Everyone is always in a rush. London is known for being crazy busy, with everyone rushing around to get somewhere or other (do not get me started on TFL and my commute to work...) However, sometimes, when my ipod battery is dead or my kitten decided to chew through my headphones or I have no reception on my Blackberry. I stop, look around and realise what the hell is the rush about? We all need to slow down and just look around us. Everyone on that same journey has a life they're living and their own ups and downs. Sometimes I think the world just revolves around me, not in an arrogant way or anything, it's just that I always think about those I know, forgetting there are billions of others on this earth.

I recently went to a funeral and thought that, regardless of where we are from or what language we speak, love and death is a language that is universal. The philosophical argument whether language is innate or not and what Wittgenstein thought about logic and language popped into my head (I won't get into that but read up on him if you wish). 

There was a speech about what happens to our souls and it made me think, we get so caught up in this world that we forget that there is an entire universe and so much more out there.  Even after death, it doesn't mean that our life story is over. I really do not wish to get all religious but whatever you believe in, we are so lucky to be here and should not be egotistical and think that, this is all that exists.

For those that cannot be with us, I hope your souls are in peace. But for the rest of us, calm down, take a breather, look around and enjoy your life. Live each day like it's your last (gosh enough with the clichés already!) Don't have any regrets and for Pete's sake don't barge me on the tube because you're in a rush, I'm only small and there'll be a next one in two minutes!!

I don't know what the meaning of life is, hell if I did, I'd be a millionaire but I do know that it is what you make it. Everyone has different interpretations of what that can mean, but so long as you are fulfilled and happy then you, yourself know the meaning of your life and that is the greatest thing to know.