Beauty and her Beast.

In my old age I am now unable to survive the ordeals of a hangover appropriately (however that should be defined is another matter entirely) but I delve into the opposite way of my old age and act like a child. Needing to be mollycoddled, eating junk and today I decided Disney was the only cure. Beauty and the Beast is not my favourite Disney but it's in the top 5 and I am able to relate to it now more than ever! Listening to the songs the famous 'tale as old as time' and the one where she realises she is falling in love with the beast:

“There's something sweet

And almost kind

But he was mean and he was coarse and unrefined

But now he's dear, and so unsure

I wonder why I didn't see it there before”

I actually had an epiphany. I could easily blame the after effects of wine and sambucca which by the way should have a Warning 'when consumed more likely to drunk text' label on it or it could have been a genuine epiphany- who knows?

I realised that some times we do look at someone we never noticed before and see them in a new light. We did not necessarily see them as a 'beast' as such but as perhaps something along those lines. Either a beast in looks, personality or just never considered them in that way. Perhaps the myth men (especially bad boys) cannot change. But perhaps, just maybe, they can? If, the beast can, why can't a human? Are we not capable of change? In my fragile state and not in the right frame of mind (clearly for the need to be mollycoddled) I replied to a text I had received three weeks ago which I had intended never to reply to. I thought in my Disney I.e delusional mind that perhaps this 'beast' was struck by lightning (by a storm which didn't happen by the way), he himself had an epiphany, or the petal of his rose was about to fall (I'll leave the suggested innuendo for your filthy imaginations) and he too, was capable of changing in nature.

“Barely even friends, then somebody bends, unexpectedly”

So, something alone the lines of his shocking “apology” and the words 'nature' (too much thinking of the Beast's nature) and Disney infused optimism; I responded.

My alcoholic infected system failed to remind me the Beast was initially a beast/bad boy hence the reason of the curse in the first place, so probably after he turned back into a human, he returned to his natural beast-like (bad boy) self...

Hours later, cured from my hangover and back to my old cynical self (all signs of Disney fairy dust vanishing with a 'pop'), I realise he will remain a beast forever. Some (most) people are just incapable of change. Myself included.

*Mistake I noticed in the Disney: The candle-stick says the spell has been for ten years and the rose falls on his 21^st birthday which would mean the spell was done when he was eleven which a) can't be as he looks older in the beginning and painting and b) just unfair for an enchantress to do that to a horrid eleven year old even if he did deserve it*